patience is virtue ?

seriously who told me this is my lucky year ? that i will have good luck and fortune in my studies esp.. the past 2 months has been my worst months i guess ~ one of the worst period in my life.. i all along tot i wont experience this heartache after last may.. i tot that was the worst it can go but this time round this is as bad or worse bah.. i know i shouldnt complain so much and shouldnt keep venting but i FEEEL LIKE I AM EXPLODING SOON !!!!!! seriously pls let me wait with peace of mind and stop haunting me in my sleep and dreams :( i learnt my lesson i swear i will work so much harder in uni and please let me have this chance to turn a new leaf ?? i tot god will leave a window when He closes the door and i am having a hard time finding that window u know :( sb told me i will b the poorest person if i ever lose faith love and hope and here i m tee jeok lyn the poverty fighter (Y)